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The Story of the Woman Who Needed to Feel Seen

By January 13, 20148 Comments

“If God is the only one who sees me, is that enough?”

That question has been rattling around in my head the last few days. The craving to be seen–to be valued, to be affirmed, to matter to people–is one I’ve wrestled with most of my life. And the funny thing is, it hasn’t gotten any easier.

The more my ministry or “platform” grows, and the more people see me online or speaking to groups, the more the craving grows too. The more people who follow me, the more I need people to follow me. The more visible I become, the more I chase after visibility.

As I mentioned in my post last week, Jacob’s wife Leah was a woman who felt unseen. She desperately desired to be seen by her husband, as symbolized by the name of her first son, Reuben, which means, “See, a son.” Leah thought her son would earn her favor, because Jacob’s other wife, Rachel, was barren. Leah hoped her ability to bear children would therefore set her apart. If she could give her husband an heir, he might finally, truly, see her.

But he didn’t. Leah’s efforts were in vain. So instead of satisfying her need to be seen, she found herself returning to the same strategy again and again, hoping for different results. She produced son after son, praying the next one would make the difference.

But each one left her feeling just as unseen as before.


In John 4, Jesus encounters a Samaritan woman who has come to draw water from a well. He explains to her, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst.” (13-14)

This exchange took place thousands of years after Leah, but doesn’t it capture the heart of her struggle? Her desire to be seen and valued by others, to find worth in her ability to produce, it was a well that could not quench her thirst. Like the Samaritan woman who returned to the well day after day, Leah was dependent upon her own brackish springs.

For me, being seen, valued, and affirmed by others is a well that, like Leah, I return to again and again. It never satisfies me. If anything, it leaves me thirstier than before.

But I don’t have to stay trapped in this pattern. In verse 14, Jesus tells us the way out:

“But whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”

My desire to be seen isn’t wrong in itself. It’s the human-centered aspect of it that is the problem. I can perform for the attention of my peers, or I can rest in the attention of my God. I can seek validation from others, or I can seek for it in Christ.

I can live for others, and never truly feel alive, or I can live for God, and experience abundant life.

I can invest my confidence in making a name for myself, or I can invest my confidence in my identity in Christ.

Of these options, one path leaves me a hollowed out woman transfixed by her own insecurities, while the other produces in my heart a spring of living water.

So I have been asking myself, if God is the only one who sees me, is that enough?

Is it enough that only God sees me awake at night with a sick child, without me tweeting or Facebooking it to the world?

Is it enough that only God sees me clean the kitchen and bathrooms, even if my husband doesn’t notice?

Is it enough that God sees me serving at church, even if no one thanks me for it?

Is it enough that God sees my loving attention to my husband, without broadcasting our dinner date on Instagram?

Is it enough that God sees my writing about Him, whether or not it gets lots of share or makes a “Best of” list for the week?

Is it enough that God sees an act of kindness to a stranger, when no one else will ever know?

If God sees it, is it enough?

There are only two answers to that question. I’m learning that one answer leads down a path of emptiness and heartache. It leads down a path of striving and never truly resting. It leads down a path of sadness, insecurity, even spiritual death.

But there is another answer to that question, and it is a path that leads to life. It is free from being self-obsessed, and it is gloriously focused on Christ.

I’m not there yet, but I’m praying for the Holy Spirit to help me. And as a part of this process, I plan to fast from some of my social media during the coming season of Lent.

Because I’m tired of returning to wells that do not satisfy. And I know God created me for more.

How about you? What wells do you return to again and again?

Screen Shot 2013-10-01 at 9.59.09 PMSharon



Screen Shot 2013-10-01 at 9.59.09 PMSharon




  • Ed Green says:

    Sharon, thank you for sharing your struggle. It is one, that I struggle with as well. There are moments when I am quite content to go unseen, but then there are other times, other seasons in my life, when I crave the attention. I wish there was some rhyme or reason to it. Maybe there is and I just haven’t figured it out yet. May the Lord help us all to be satisfied to be seen by him, no matter who else happens to notice.

    • Sharon says:

      Ed, I do find one grace buried within the persistent craving–it reminds us of our frailty, and encourages us to rely on Him. On that count, I thank God for the struggle, as strange as it may sound!

  • Margie Smallman says:

    I love this. I so relate to every word… the need to be fulfilled in God alone. I thought of Psalm 121:1-2 “I look up to the mountains- does my help come from there? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.” We could substitute the word “mountain” for whatever it is that we find ourselves habitually turning to . I love the sweetness of God in His gentle, perfectly individual way of teaching us how to find what we need in Him. Some days, I just wish it could be a smother, faster process! Don’t you?! 🙂

  • Nicole says:

    I’m so very, very thankful for this entry. My striving to be seen is met by even more feelings of invisibility especially @ church where the rejection feels particularly hurtful since your among your forever-family. My default is to pray that they might be better Christians. But now I’m convinced it’s God’s way of testing that Jesus is enough: easy to know, difficult to practice, but I too am praying through it. Thank you, Sharon.

  • Emily says:

    Thank you for your transparency, Sharon! I love reading your writing. It is truth that many of us need to hear. As much as the Lord has taken away some of my previous desires to be noticed, I still struggle at times. We all want to feel appreciated and it can be frustrating when nobody seems to notice good that we’re doing.

  • So glad to know that I am not alone in this persistent battle of my heart! Thanks, Sharon.

  • ckelseya317 says:

    My new favorite post! THANK YOU for sharing this……..
    I constantly struggle with what pictures/statuses women post on facebook and instagram. Displaying their husbands “affections” toward them causes envy in me. But because so many ARE “showing off” to the world, it seems to become the norm to do this.
    When I was with my boyfriend of 3 years last June, I was guilty of posting “proof” of our valentine dinner together, same thing goes for friends too.
    It’s hard to ignore these posts on social media.

    I am inspired to think about your question”Is it enough that God sees me serving at church, even if no one thanks me for it?”

    Will be thinking about this more now.

    Thank you! (love your blog)

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